heyz.....
here to blog... sprained my ankle... some how... i find myself quite smart.... sprain my ankle purposely so i no need to play the singles..... heeheee.... but in the end played 2 doubles and 1 single... some how...i've realised. a person has to sides. a very nice 1. one would always like to see. the other. some what chidlish side. or "bad" side. i've realised.... if u really love someone. you would accept everthing abt tis person.if i had nv liked tis part of * then why did i go wid * can u tell me.... now i feel so... reluctant to let go of the past... i feel as if i want everyone to koe that * is bad... why m i doin tis??? is this really me?? why do i feel so different wid #? # although we are really together. i feel that i love # a lot... i do.. i want to show it. but i cant. # koes it. will # accept it. since we are already - ??. or izzit just game over?? if it is. did i play it well?? did i get the high score?? i want to continue. i dont want to start again. # be mine will u. although we are playing. i really love u.
[love is loving he/she whole-heartedly, every part of he/she]
{ tis is my prayer. had you not broke my heart. thou would not have felt this way. YONEKURA i still love u. i really do......
My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/27/2003 09:59:00 pm
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
heyz...
long time no blog liao.. actually. long time no use the comp. been so hooked up to raw2. that bloody x-box game.. hahaha!! come to think of it.. rico really realy suckx.. and hulk hogan aint that bad.. but h3. is still the worst... aHAHAHA!! lame la... ahahah! welll sneeking to use the comp again. hahaha!! wanna koe wat prezzies i got for my burfade??/ wanna koe?? do u really wanna koe???
ok here. goes
1.$100 metro voucher
2.clay figure of a skateboarder
3. a pair of earrings and a ring.
4. ONE KILOGRAM OF COOKIES!!!?? -urgh-
5.orange nautica t-shirt
6.grey op t-shirt.
7.candle wid my name carved on it...
8.some cute grey bear wid patches on it.
9.box of seashell chocolates
10. a HUMONGOUS. purple hippo. which i like very much..
11. $80 worth of angbao money..
12. a polo ralph long sleeve. and a nike. t-shirt wid a japanese word on it. and that. i think is abt all..
all so nice. rite... oh yes... and no. 13. LOTS OF HUGS FROM LOTSA PPLE. hahaha!! YUppp. suppose thats all..
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/26/2003 01:00:00 am
Sunday, November 23, 2003
heyz....
im glad... certified glad... amazingly. ra and maryanne came to my party... hahahah!!! amazing ya............had fun ytd....... even though kana scolded ahd stuff. hahaha!! got to bond with some pple... nv knew they so k-po. actualy i alwaes knew... hate him. hahaha!! irina was so chio ytd....amazing.... hahahaha!!! misa also... hmmm/ cheryl... so good looking siah... yandao. hahaha!! got a lot of prezzies.. very nice wans.. hahaha! i love all of themm. ahahha! thank u all very much.... and thank u. for attending it. although u couldnt.. hahaha!!
HUITING!!! happy birthday... i will nv forget ur birthday.. heeheehee.!!!!
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/23/2003 11:51:00 am
Saturday, November 22, 2003
heyoz...
im glad?? im sad??? i dunno. haiz... technically. im crying. im cyring here. why did it have to trun out like this. for a person like this. i must put on a strong front.i cant do it. but i have to... it broke me downnn... can u believe it....
heehee. my party today.. hahaha!~ its a bbq... kinda excited. although its a major... wads that word.. hahhaa!!!i dunno la... i just feel like cancelling it... but 4pm is so close... so close... so very close... i will update on the situation ltr... thank u!
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/22/2003 03:23:00 pm
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
heyz...
feeling kinda pissed now... hmmm. fancy me getting pissed over stoopid stuff...ra and fang zi and jaryne aint coming to my party... now.. wad does tis, mean??????? im gonna have the most miserable party??/ well.. ought to look on the bright side. at least im gonna spend it with pple i koe. orh man!!! who m i kidding.hmmmmm. i aint sure...im so scared... im scared all of u back out. on that day itself...im gonna cry.. why... must u do tis to me....... do u koe its hurts... do u koe that i cherish u. that i love u. why wont u come wid me. instead of goin out wid dem. like they say.... when u get new 1s u wont want the old 1s. who koes wad will happen. can u dont do this to me... oooh... wad am i talkin bout. so drama. can get oscars siah..hahahaha.. hmmmm. but im really scared all of u back out..... badminton gals.. ur coming rite.. love u all tight.*muackz*
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/19/2003 11:44:00 pm
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
heyoz....
yesterday nv update. not tt i dont want to update or wad la.. hahaha! i kinda seem to have updateed but something went wrong. hahaha!! hmmm. tell u. maxine sure has to be happy. her GONG RUINA is her home country champion. lucky girl.. ahaha! but i think prefer her compared to zhou mi. had dft my yonekura.ya gong ruina bt her b4. but at lest she wasnt in the 2nd rd and stuff like dat.. haha!!! oh yeah to add insult to defeat. roger federer bt andre agassi. pity pity. hahaha!! if onli paradorn was there. oh.. geez.. how cool would it be. hahaha!!! paradorn is good looking. but my coria is better. heeheehee ;p. im so bored. now... hahaha! its 5 now... thankfully my parents forgot tt i have golf today. haha! i aint gonna remind them either. hahaha!!! YES!! i dunwan to go. ltr gonna see my cousin.his grandmother bdae.in other words my grandaunt.and blah blah blah... worst things first...fang zi cant come to my birthday party. boohoohoo. childish siah... so old still got party. haha~ but i like.*well hopefully*. goin out wid her.and maryanne. on my birthday itself. which is 24. monday.heeheehee. after tennis. we meet her. haha!i wanna go pick her up from the tennis centre. then she go wid us not so lonely. ahahah!!and i havent gotten all the pple i want to come. sheesh.lets see. here goes the list...
fang zi[x]
joanne[?]
mel[?]
ra[+]
ma[+]
emma[x]
anna[x]
yanna[?]
jaryne[+]
cheryl voo[+]
tania voo[+] -and their pesky little uninvited brother.
shu yu- [+]weiying comin wid her
pangzai.[+]
cheryl tan[?]
mabel[?]
hmmm. gonna take my shower....bye...
heres a song. thats gonna leave u thinkin. yep.
"Kiss From A Rose"
There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and
The light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh,
The more I get of you,
Stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grey.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain,
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grey,
I've been kissed by a rose on the grey,
I've been kissed by a rose
I've been kissed by a rose on the grey,
...And if I should fall along the way
I've been kissed by a rose
...been kissed by a rose on the grey.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain
My power, my pleasure, my pain.
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grey.
Yes I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
And now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the grey
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grey.
[ www.azlyrics.com ]
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/18/2003 05:17:00 pm
Sunday, November 16, 2003
heyox.....
soooo happy now. haha! finally gonna play badminton. oooh yeah...been 2 weeks??? suppose so... hehehe. im glad roger federro or wadever it is dft. ANDY STOOPID RODDICK. hahaha!!! good. haha!! so glad... my coria got revenge. hmmm.. nuthin to say liao.. leaving for badminton in 5 minutes.... ermmm....yep... wanna go out tml.. anybdy wanna go tag my boardie... or sms me. hahaha!! i koe my no. rite??
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/16/2003 01:52:00 pm
Saturday, November 15, 2003
heyz.....
im sooooo bored... hahahahaha!!! im startin to sound like a boy. OMG!! my voice suddenly so low.-_-"
ra says i've been eating too much garbage. haha! which its obviously not true. i think.hmmmm. slept in my mum's room last night. hahaha!!!!woke up in the morning at 925. to catch my lover on tv.but i was kinda late. by 25 minutes??? im not sure when they started. hahahaha!!! sickening andy roddick. bully my lover. hahaha!!! he's just jealous that he aint as cute as my lover. hahaha!! and if u've been wondering. who my lover is. it cant yonekura. cos... andy roddick was involved. yea... u get wad i mean rite. hahaha! its guillermo coria. oh so obsessed wid him. so cute. i want to faint. hahaha! tt andy roddick. SO UGLY!! looks like a hippo. some more got major attitude problem.!!! losing already. go ard screaming. use his racket and whack stufff. crazy. haiyo... sore loser. to think fang zi would like tis kinda guy. hahaha!!! he so cute. wanna see his photo?
click on tis link :
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yup... goin to king albert park condo soon. my sister having a party there la.. hahaha! hmmmm. gotta go bubbye.
*im so sorry baby. but in this world. being who im now is not gonna bring any where. its only gonna bring shame.but i want u to koe that i will stil support u in whatever u do. ilu.
i've decided to turn str8 now. i dont know if its gonna last or wad. cos. like wad dey say. leopards cant change their spots. coria. ilu*
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/15/2003 06:40:00 pm
Friday, November 14, 2003
hmmm... just got back from indoor stadium. shin concert. so loud. but quite nice la.. hahaha!!hmmm.. when i was there i was reminded of yonex sunrise open. hmmmmmm. so many flashbacks of yonekura. suddenly. an image of her and me appeared ard the vip lounge. i was getting her autograph. i also saw myself running dwn the stairs gettin a pen and paper for her to autograph. so many images... i cant believe. it. but. she is still my NUMBER 1.
good night
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/14/2003 11:51:00 pm
+did you ever know that you were my hero?+
heyz...
i changed my temp. cos i thought that,that white one was kinda boring. hahaha! so i got something i lil more exciting. except for the fact the tag baord suxz.. hahaha!! yesterady dint blog cos i wasnt feeling so good. i was sick... haiz...-_-" and my mum left for bangkok yesterday evening while my went in the morning. he went to play golf my mum went to do her shopping. she went to do some thai silk stuff. hmmm.. i wished i could have gone. hmmmm... over these days. i dont koe what comin over me. i just think that. i m so free.. i can do whatever she can. i can go wherever she can. when the fact is. i cant be ad good as she is. and can where ever she can. cos we leave in to seperate worlds... she lives. in japan. i live. in singapore. she lives in tokyo. kodaira. i live in singapore. clementi. shes more senior. shes fitter. shes better. while im nothing. if i were to play with people like her. i will lose out for sure.
-
tears of joy
tears of pain. sweltering. pain had broke out. in a moment of anger.
it was you i believed in.
you had to make it all messed up
i aint criticizing you.
but im just making a point.
had you been there. it would have became. successful.
baby. i love you.
i know you know that i love you.
cos. i can feel. it.
you will never know who is loving you.
but u will alwaes. know that i care.
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/14/2003 10:02:00 am
Thursday, November 13, 2003
heyz...
back from camp liao...
shud i go into details??
here i go
day1.
_____
exciting had tug of war...1st rd was infront. lost out. really sucked. 2nd round. made a come back. 3rd round lost. 4th rd. was rolling on the ground. but still made it.. ahaha! technically.. first day was more attached to our groups. hhaha!
day2.
_____
came back early in the morn. cos night time went home. was rushing cos evry1 goin canoeing.. ok the first grp. hockey and badminton.. we went to get the kayak... den the instructor briefed us... that stoopid dickhead... hate himmm...at the end dunno wad on earth was he tryin to do. hahahaha!! he came to my kayak's right. tried to push us. came to my kayak's left. i tried to push him. in the end.. i capsized wid a girl i dont even koe. ltr... we played some games.. quite fun. hahaha!! den ltr msged ra. in the evening. she called back.. ta;ked so long. was lookin for some1 to talk to her. she talked to fangzi twice. haha!. so fun can.. talkin to fangzi is nice. ahaha! dunno y. or maybe im bias. hahaha!
day3.
_____
we went to ite ang mo kio. the alpha zone. haha! very funny. can. at the trapeze station joanne kana rope burn. so poor ting haha! xin lin of track made it to the trapeze. which was bt 2m awae from the pole. haha! slyvia. grabed it. but dint hold on..... poor her... ltr went for the other obstacles... came back to the trapeze. haha! just watched on. hmmmm... xin lin was cool. farhana. -_-" laugh like nobdys business. she wa swinging ther.screaming. she was like an insect, dangling dere. yu shan worst still. also like insect. then ltr pose for camera. haha! twice summore. haha! den caem back to camp. had a bbq. hahaha!
day4.
_____
it was the end of it all. hahaha!! viewed some photos and film of wad happend. haha!! den left for school. den went home from then on. and tts the end good night.
-boring siah.. haha!!
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/13/2003 01:16:00 am
Sunday, November 09, 2003
hmmmmmm... late entry... gonna sleep soon. not. i gotta pack my stuff. gotta be in school. in like... 6hr and 3omins time. DIE. hahahaha!!!! im gonna be so dead. i dunno wat to bring and stuff. shit... how i wish it wasnt so early. and so soon. hahaha! gonna miss all my buddies. hahaha!. and pangzai.. so cute hahahaha!!!. she very funny. no comments gotta go liao.. charge my phone and do the nesscessities. i think my period over lioa.. YEA!!! IM GONNA ENJOY THE CAMP MORE.. HAHAHAHA!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ gd nite...
ps/ pangzai's got a blog. http://psychoticshit.blogspot.com.
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/09/2003 12:24:00 am
Friday, November 07, 2003
heyz......
hmmmmmmm. goin out soon. feeeling little pooped. exhausted and stuff. haha! gotta take muh shower. and stuff. meeting joanne at 1.30!!!!!!!! omg.. i gotta buy some ear studs. for my ear. cant wear to camp. BUT I CANT BE BOTHERED!!!!! hahaha! hmmmmm...so excited. thought they wanted to do nails hhaha! cheat my feelings. hahaha! not tt i want to do or wad lor... ahahahah! wells gotta go. bubbye
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/07/2003 12:22:00 pm
Thursday, November 06, 2003
heyz.
here to blog although its getting kinda. late.. haha! today. my mama went out. go bugis junction for some ntuc opening. cos my mother. renovate almost all the ntuc in singapore. hahaha! cool siah.. but we got no discount... ltr. my mama came home. she brought us to ikea. the next door. see car. wad car bmw!!! hhahaha! super sweee. haha!(swee means beautiful)
the bmw 530i. the salesperson was nice.. i quite like her.. gonna play a prankl on her 1 day. haha! find her no.. haha! i wanted 100% discount on the car. then she says i was a good buyer or soemthing like dat... cant rmb, that well. ahahha! but she was cute and funny... hmmm gotta go now.. my dad's chasing.
guhd nyte.
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/06/2003 11:22:00 pm
hmmmm.. changed my template... nice hor.. aboh.. haha! buey hiao bai. haha! seriously.. its quite nice. although its simple. hahaha! welll got nuthin better to do. i decided to BLOG!!!hehehe. too free liao... mus go out. or i will die. soon.... hahaha! see my birthday counter??????? 18 more days.... yipes...hahaha! dunno wad to do. *pengz* hahaha! hmmm. shud i have a barbecue at home or go out wid SOME frens. to seoul garden. hmmm. but its i pay la... ahahaha~ it would be on monday tt i go out wid dem leh.. have the barbecue on saturday lor... ask coach to come. haha! i like. coach. he very funny. and nice. hahaha! welll. got nuthing to say liao.. cos my muh birthday is comin. and sports camp is in jus 3 DAYS TIME.WAHAHAH! shit. cant find my bag... die la.. hahaha! hmmm. im finally attached. hahaha! to wad?? badminton la.. duh!~. hahaha! im attached im attached. im so pruod to say im attached to badminton. YES!!!
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/06/2003 11:49:00 am
Wednesday, November 05, 2003
hmmmmm.
sho pissed now.. i did tis really tiring thing. and suddenly. it just VANISHED.haiz... FUCKED UP OK!! i miss all muh darlings.. haha! but i miss muh baby girl the most.although i just talked to her like and hr and 15mins ago. yup...yonekura too. shes now in taiwan. shes my baby. haha! baby. i want you to know that i am gonna pray for you all the time. i want u to be happy cos. a week ago u turned 365 days wiser. making u 9855 days wise.(27yrs old)//a week ago i laid in my bed. it was gonna be the next day is 15 minutes. i laid there. made my most sincere prayer. wishing. i'd could be there with you. i cried myself to sleep for you. do you think its worth it?? // hmmmm. my baby girl... i koe tt u dont koe. i still dont want u to knoe until our relationships really starts to build up cos.. im afraid u will leave me in the lurch if i tell u now..when i heard ur voice jus now. i was feeling much better. cos. i was so bored. u made my day. thankz. baby. i was kinda shocked u called to. yup. baby. love u loads. *muacks*
well.. goin out now. hahaha! my mummy wanna bring us out. so... bubbye
gd night
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/05/2003 08:06:00 pm
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
heyz..
nv blogged in a long time. yup.. wont talk bout yesterday either. nothing really happened.....hmmm. today went back to school. was late. REALLY LATE. haha! we suppose to end at 8.35. and i came at 8.30. its like might as well dun come lor... but miss chen held us back for awhile. haha! she's gonna teach us maths next year. hahaa! DIE!! haha! after that went out wid ra fz maryanne pangzai and jaryne. haha! i so extra can! den summore no money.still got town. haiz..-_-" i cant stand goin down to town widout money lor... like im broke or sumtink lor...den ltr.. i got really pissed cos. i was like leftout. do u koe how sad tt is??????!!!!! den joanne was at tiong. we were lookin at some stuff for her. her bdae mah.. haha! den saw tis bball jersey. black converse. onli 25. we all got no money. haiz... hahaha! den ltr... i became normal. me. u koe.. cheery. crazy? idiotic. yup.. haha! went to heeren. dey want to take neoprint. haha! but in the end dint take la. hahaha! cos all very tired. haha! actually i wanted to take as well. but. i saw pple. tt i dint wish to see at that point of time. haha! geddit? i wont name them.. cos.. im actually quite nice. ahaha!but i want to name. i want... i dunno. hahaha! hmmm... den ltr. went cinei. went bowling. dint bowl. looked at some guys. :|
first time k.not tt i want to see la.. was forced to see more or less. haha! not cute can!!! so nerdy. acs bowling team!!! lame!! *puts L on the forehead*then went home lor.. haha! in the bus me and fang zi keep crapping lor.. hahaha! every grandma come in. i will ask her. ur granma izZit? den she say... no la.. if my grandma she will shout wan. hahaahaha!
den she saw me typing tis msg to my fren.. haha! she saw tt i wrote.. hahahaha. hahahaha...wahahahahahahahahahaha... A LOT OF IT. haha! den she was like.. gwen ahh.. no need to laugh until lidat. haha!. so funny. can!
i love u. cos i really do... it came back to me. it did. i love u. i really do. will u love me like how i love u?
*my love for you will never end, you'll always be my baby girl*
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/04/2003 03:20:00 pm
Sunday, November 02, 2003
heyz....
im confused now. shud i go or not. if i go. i will be very distracting. cos im gonna do the un-thinkable. haha! im goona bring sum kinda posters. to cheer maryanne fz and ra on. haha! yup.. there is a new link. yup.. its for photos. at the club. which is the warren club. and im gonna take some pics of the tennis trials which is happening tml. yups.. so tts all. yup. good nite.
seriously. i have never truly loved anyone other then her. when i liked someone. i jus got tt tingly feeling all over me.its like. i felt happy to see so and so. but after awhile. after i seen tis person for like... so long. i kinda get sick of them. in other words. i get bored. TOTALLY. its i get bored of their face. but i still like them...... up to now. i still like my cutie pie. maybe he koes.. maybe he doesnt. i like him like how i used to. but i like her. as in NOW... and i dont koe wat im driving to. im just gonna have to say. was i want to. to release it.
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/02/2003 11:01:00 pm
Saturday, November 01, 2003
heyz....
hmmmmm... got nuthin better to do so im here. at the club. using the computer. lamest to the extent la!!! hahahah! hmmmm... well today was kinda boring! if onli i could go downtown. but ra and ma and fz and mel. alll playin tennis. they want to get in to tennis mah..... monday tryouts liao.. hahaha!hmmm.. waiting here lor.. waitin for tt anna! i want to talk to her!! hahaha! that zephyr. haiz....-_-" no comments. but her voice quite cute.hahaha!like little girll.. haha! but she is a little girl. in size i suppose. hahaha!im feelin so tired now!!dont koe why...
hmmm... been thinkin abt it after anna called.where zephyr talked. do i really like sarah. or is it now part of my past?i want to koe. i cant ask any1 except myself. to tell the truth. i liked her. yup... and now i like stacey. but. i dont want them to koe... i want to wait fro awhile... where i will start to forget.... i want that to happend. i WANt to be happy,i want them to be happy as well.. i dunwan them to koe. i really dont.
hey!! i finally am able to link them photos. go check it out. i linked it
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/01/2003 05:49:00 pm
hey....
here to update again. got nuthin better to do. hahaa! hmmm... went trick or treating. was a whole lot of fun. hhaha! talked to amelia. hahaha den brought her fro the 2nd rd. hhahaha! in the afternoon anna from jcc called. and zephyr was talkin. hahaa! lame can! happy halloween. u like sarah rite? dont huh me. hahaha! tts wad she said. haha! late liao.. gonna slp. gd nite!
Queen Gwendolyn. || 11/01/2003 12:11:00 am
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