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Tuesday, December 16, 2003

hie pple my new bloggie. nuthin new la.. its the same..
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Queen Gwendolyn. || 12/16/2003 08:04:00 pm

peeeepoz.......

got new bloggie. k... must go and see k.

Queen Gwendolyn. || 12/16/2003 08:02:00 pm

Queen Gwendolyn. || 12/16/2003 07:44:00 pm

heeheehee..im boredd. so pissed. tho... sickening father. but he can be really nice at timess. geeez...im so contradicting... i think i've got ther change my bloggie name liao.. hahaha!!! cheers.

Queen Gwendolyn. || 12/16/2003 07:43:00 pm
Sunday, December 14, 2003

here i am.. blogging at this early?? late hour?? haha!!and msg to TESSA SLATER!!! I WASNT FLIRTING WID THE WAITRESS!!! we were just interacting. she asked if i wanted serviets (i cant spell serviets.) or wadever it is..i was like no. then we started making funny faces thats all.. haha!! but shes kinda cute..^_^but u've gotta admit.. u were flirting wid me!! touching me here there everywhere. ur somewhat a pervert!! she was so pretty.. orh man.. shes got that face. *i wont tell u wad face* man... hahaahaha!! helen... i love u!! ilu iluiluiluiluiluiluiluiluiluiluilu!!!! girl.. its just you and me!! yea babehhhh!!. helen i love you loadzzz*muakx*

Queen Gwendolyn. || 12/14/2003 04:41:00 am
Thursday, December 11, 2003

heyz...

i came back form indonesia.. its quite nice... but very wasted.... i wanted to buy the nike. force.. really cool. some more the price is like 50 sing dollar. singapore is 89.. gosh... big price diff... hahah!!dint get to meet jeaneth... i think i koe wad school she goez to liao.. haha!!

i feel a part of me gone. lost. i miss all of you..
[jina jie jie im gonna miss you and william kor kor a lot... wish u all the best although i nv really got to meet you 2 in sg.]

baby.. i dint mean to. everthing i said wasnt true... i swear. i still love you. you will be the only one im gonna love. you will always be my hero. im sorry baby.

Queen Gwendolyn. || 12/11/2003 08:03:00 pm
Saturday, December 06, 2003

i gave up on it all... i turned my ways. i know i was wrong. i had brought shame to myself. now i have to lose it alll. was it all worth it? was it my pain? did i deserve it?? now i feel so irritated by myself. i feel so wrong. i wanna talk to someone... i never knew who to talk to. i always thought talking to my best friend always helped.i thought she could understand.she turned her back on me. do i still have to be what i was. i wanna stop what i always do. i wanna stop i want it all to end now... i dont want to that cheery, happy, happy-go-lucky gal you all always knew. i feel so hurt by you. you dont know it cause. you will never understand my pain. cause you will never be able to know me. understand me and love me i've always wanted to treat just like my friends. my BESTFRIEND. but i realized. i cant. i wanted to forget you. but everything reminded me of you. my screensaver. my phone. my computer.my arm. and most of all my leg.after so long its still there. i've tried. using detergent to wash it all away. i've tried foundation powder. it work. but it came back. i have realized that i do not want to lose you. i want you. but i know that i can never have you. i want to forget you. i faced a lot of problems. when i couldnt forget you. i want to lose you. but i want to love you. why are you always in my mind. why cant i forget you? is it so hard. your just some woman. who doesnt even have respect for yourself. letting others who are not even close to your standard, climb over your own head. your just nothing to that person. you are almost nothing to me. but why are u still stuck in my head. in the back of my head.not willing to get out. i cant control my feelings. whatever you do now. i dont care. cause. to be. your still almost nothiNG!. i want you to know. you lost it. its all gone. how many tens. hundreds of other people have climbed your head already? do you know that YOU used to be my hero? you saved me. made me realized that i can do it. be better than the rest if i tried. after all this. all you are doin now is proving how lousy you are to me now.. my friends laugh at you. although her hero is much better than you. at least you can prove you still can do it. doing this makes me feel stupid. i've always thought YOU were my hero. and that one day. i would be like you. be other girls of my country their hero.i am not who i thought i am. who i thought i can be. dont you get it?? i've sacrificed. i did my best. i tried. i want to do much better. but... u truned my senses around. you gave me to thing that. since my hero cant play welll. wads the point in me playing well. can you see how much i treasure YOU as my hero? can you? NO! you can never! cause. i think it is really over. YOU CANT BE MY HERO ANYMORE!!

Queen Gwendolyn. || 12/06/2003 01:25:00 pm
Wednesday, December 03, 2003

i wanna lose you, but i cant bear the thought of doin so. i am sorry

Queen Gwendolyn. || 12/03/2003 10:49:00 am
Tuesday, December 02, 2003

i wanna lose you, but i cant bear the thought of doin so. i am sorry

Queen Gwendolyn. || 12/02/2003 01:20:00 pm